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Relationships as Initiation ’Till Death

'Till Death

A Relational Journey
With Jen & Atilla
Boulder, Colorado
Jen and Atilla

Somewhere you learned that your relationship is where your truth goes to die.

That you have to hide so you don't lose love. That the power you've been afraid to own would change everything. The grief and shame you can't let yourself feel, lest it tear you apart. The fantasy you've never dared to share. The intimacy you long for, and have never known how to ask for.

You used the relationship to stay small, until you started hiding from yourself.

Your relationship can also be where you thrive, play, & come fully alive.

How much of you got left at the door so the loving could stay easy?

The WorkThe Paradigm
I

Relationships in devotion to playful transformation.

Most relationships trade aliveness for certainty. Yours can get wilder, truer, more alive.

II

Sovereign interdependence over codependence.

Two whole people choosing each other, not two halves clinging; each a mirror and witness.

III

Eros as medicine, shaman, and guide.

Stop managing your appetite and start following it. Your life-force leads into deeper aliveness, spontaneity, and freedom.

IV

Death as honored teacher.

Let the parts that have served their purpose die, so your truest relationship can be born.

V

Truth as the only foundation.

Your vulnerable truth is the ground real love stands on. Boundaries are a gift, desires beautiful.

How we workThe Format
01

Private sessions

Online & in person
02

Weekend immersions

Curated, by invitation
03

6–12 month intensives

Deep, sustained work

With Atilla, Jen, or both.

Atilla Çıdam

Soul Catalyst
Scholar & Mentor

PhD in social psychology, bridging rigorous science with mystical arts. A decade of close work with individuals, couples and groups, where love stops being polite. Devoted to making ecstatic love with the full spectrum of life, guiding couples into a path of eros, truth, and play.

More about Atilla

Jen Taylor

Somatic Clinician
Ceremonial & Medicine Guide

Master's in somatic psychology and body psychotherapy, specializing in trauma healing and spiritual awakening. Trained in EMDR, parts work, and PACT couples therapy, with initiation in earth-based wisdom traditions. A decade at the intersection of attachment repair, embodiment, and mystery.

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The plain facts
Format
A private arc for one couple: preparation calls, immersive days in Boulder, and integration afterward.
Dates
Scheduled in conversation. Dates go to the waitlist first.
Group size
One couple at a time.
Held by
Atilla Çıdam, psychologist (PhD), and Jen Taylor, somatic practitioner (MA).
For
Two people who still love each other and are done trading aliveness for security.
Price
Discussed in the application conversation.
To apply
Write to us. A conversation first, always. Enquire →
The Invitation

'Till Death do you part from every part of you that was going to die hiding anyway.